Showing posts with label Kim Van Sickler. football games. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Kim Van Sickler. football games. Show all posts

Monday, September 17, 2012

Flashback to High School


by Kim Van Sickler

For those of you with kids, you've probably spent plenty of time at their schools. Whether volunteering, attending open houses and parent/teacher conferences, dropping off and picking up the kids, or supporting them by watching their music concerts/sporting events, there's plenty of opportunity to hearken back to our own school days.

And I have. Plenty of times. Probably more than I should.

I still have those nightmares where I forget where my locker is, can't remember my locker combination, misplace my school schedule and don't know which class to go to next, forget to attend a class all semester and now it's finals time and I need to study and take a test in a class I know nothing about.

But this year something new has been added to the equation. High school football games.
First home game of the season had the benefit of a blue moon
Football games are different than any other type of school event. They are huge social outlets. HUGE. And this year, as I traipse from football game to football game to watch my brilliant daughter play mellophone in a competition marching band, I find myself re-living a particular high-school experience I didn't even like the first time around.

That experience of needing to hang out with other people at football games.

You see, I've discovered that at these highly social affairs I just don't feel comfortable sitting by myself watching the game.

Because no one else does. And I guess I'm too concerned about being seen as a loser.

That is a total high school reaction.

Guess who hasn't progressed as much beyond high school as she'd like to believe she has?

I fight it tooth and nail, but my high school self always wins out.

I refuse to make plans to meet with anyone ahead of time, telling myself I'll just show up to watch the band.

Then, I get to the game and resort to panic at the thought of everyone having someone to sit with/talk to and me being that annoying third wheel.

OMG. For real? Why do I care? Why can't I just go to a game and watch my daughter perform? Teenage angst. Maybe there are some experiences that we are destined to re-live over and over and over again.
Some Willoughby South marching band members
I swear, I'm going to go to her next game and not care who I see and who I sit with.

Does anyone believe me?