Tuesday, January 31, 2012

The Burn

Last week we had a good friend over for dinner. He is someone who I respect as a poet and person. After dinner he told us about how he and another friend had gotten together and decided to do a “burn”. It's not what you might be thinking.

He explained that they gathered their early manuscripts, notebooks, revisions and anything earlier than the last three years of writing, built a fire and then burned their work.

I asked a ton of questions like: Did they sort it? Did they read through it first? Was there any particular order to the burning? All of the answers were no. He stated that it was just a fire and two guys burning what needed to be shed.

What a concept, I thought. Especially for me who has boxes of hard copies, years of notebooks and back-up USB drives to my back-up files online. I wondered if I could do some burning.

It wasn't until I received my latest rejection letter that I put the thought into action.

What was I holding onto all this stuff for anyway? I wasn't planning to wallpaper a room with my rejection letters; they were in a box in the basement. And I am pretty sure that even if I become a bestselling writer, no one is going to buy any of my early manuscripts.

So I started the process and after three days of digging and sorting I ended up with two boxes and a milk crate full of writing. I kept the notebooks and journals from 2009 to now (seven to be exact), a couple critiques, and my very first book of poetry I wrote (in 8th grade) but everything else had to go.
Extraneous stuff that needs to go.
My husband, Tim, was kind enough to help out by clearing a place in the snow and collecting some wood (albeit wet). I carried out the milk crate of paper and I started burning.

We sat around the fire and put in page after page, notebook after love letter after manuscript. And it took longer than I thought. In fact we didn't even get to the other boxes.
Aftermath of "The Burn".
But I can't even begin to explain the catharsis. It was even better than I had imagined. Unlike my friend, I read some stuff aloud and some quietly to myself. And though it was interesting to see where I used to be as a writer. It was amazing to realize how much I have grown as a writer.

My husband said that it was a great example of living in the now. And he proceeded to gather up some old photos.

We have another burn planned. And we might make a party of it. Invite some friends, drink some wine and burn collectively.

I encourage you to give it a try. Even if it's just one page, just one sentence.

Regina Gort

7 comments:

  1. This made me hyperventilate! I have to admit to having the "novel" that I wrote in 1978 when I was in the 8th grade. I looked at it for the first time in over 30 years when my son (who was in 8th grade) asked to read it, and found that I had typed it on the back of middle school flyers, high school scheduling forms, etc. Burning it? Don't know. But I'm glad that it was helpful for you!

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    1. That is priceless. How can you throw that away? Did your son enjoy it?

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    2. Sorry to have caused a panic attack, so not my intention. It's really about letting go and knowing that I have grown as a writer and a person. And I love that you have your first novel for your family to read.

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  2. I love this idea! I end up holding onto drafts for way too long and have to remind myself that I won't be checking those comments from old workshops anymore. I just did a big purge a couple of weeks ago, but it was to the recycling bin--not nearly as cool.

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    1. I considered the recycle bin as it is more earth friendly but I needed the ritual aspect of the burn to actually get me to do it.

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  3. Admire your being able to do it & I'm glad you found it helpful, but I can't, I can't, I can't!

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    1. Maybe not today and maybe not tomorrow but some day you will have the courage to burn!

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