Wednesday, September 3, 2014

Looking for serenity

by Kim Van Sickler
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I was living with blinders on. At the same time I was blissfully content with my life, someone in my family was battling demons. Demons that threatened to tear my family apart.

I didn't have a clue.

Suddenly my schedule and assumptions and future plans were as substantial as week-old party balloons.

And as anyone who has weathered a personal crisis knows, sometimes you feel like you're staring into one of those distorted mirrors in an amusement park funhouse.
http://academic-jungle.blogspot.com/2013/10/funhouse-mirror.html

It's pointless to wish things back to the way they were. I've got to make the best of my here and now and weather on. Get used to the total lack of predictability in my life and learn to live day by day.

Learn to live the meaning of the Serenity Prayer:

Learn to really appreciate and never take my family for granted again. 

Stare those insecurities down and vow not to let the uncertainty diminish my resolve to live a meaningful life.

I may have had my legs knocked out from under me, but that doesn't mean I'll never walk again. 

I will. I might even run.

19 comments:

  1. I'm totally with you on this,, Kim. You're describing my life this year. And yes, we just need to take it a day at a time. Hope you get through your challenges.

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  2. Kim, I admire your resilience. The Serenity Prayer has gotten me through many difficult times. Hugs.

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  3. I'm sorry! Prayers you get back on track.

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  5. Life can be so tough. Great post. Inspiring. Sending prayers your way.

    This year, I have had my personal confidence shaken down to the ground core and I have been working slowly at rebuilding it. I think I have only one layer bricks laid so far, lol, however, it is hard when life throws rotten tomatoes, lol. I'd rather it be lemons, at least you make lemonade.

    I am wishing you many seasons of rainbows, floods of healing aloe, and a regiment of angels to guide you through.

    Juneta at Writer's Gambit

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  6. Thank you for your kind words on my blog this morning. I understand your determination, and I have no doubt that you'll conquer all. I too am working to move forward and just signed up for a 27 day journaling challenge. I provided the link below, even though it began on Monday, Sept. 1st, there's no reason not to take advantage and use this wonderful tool to help discover a new path! It's simple and yet very powerful. I'm enjoying the challenge, and yes, even learning a little more about me. Wishing you all the best!

    http://www.createwritenow.com/27-days-of-journaling-to-health--happiness-sign-up/

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  7. I'm so sorry to read this, Kim. Wishing you peace and serenity.

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  8. sorry to hear this, Kim. I hope you and your loved one are back on track soon. "Battling demons." That's strong stuff.

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  9. Here's to running again

    (I've always loved that Serenity Prayer)

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  10. I needed this, especially today!! God be with you!

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  11. I've always loved that Serenity Prayer! I hope you and your family get through this difficult time. Hugs!

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  12. I'm so sorry this has happened, Kim. Unpredictability can be so hard. Wishing you strength, stability, walking, and running again.

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  13. Always loved that prayer. And as for running, the idea appals me. But I do hope you get back to it. :)

    shahwharton.com

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  14. Sending hugs and prayers... I know you'll be embraced by strength. Take care.

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  15. Dropping by again a second time to inform you that you've been nominated for "The Versatile Blogger" Award that I also got for my second blog. Here's my post on that: Versatile Blogger Award: Delighted to Receive it!

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    1. Very sweet of you, Sittie! I am delighted too!

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  16. Grr! I lost my comment when I logged in on my phone. Kim, you have shown us nothing but grace and dignity as you've worked through your life change. I'm so proud of you! Many people would have retreaded into the fetal position.

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    1. That's nice of you to say, Sharon. Thanks for all of your support.

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